Brain on Fire

Today I have to go in for oral surgery. My anxiety levels are paralyzing. I tried to meditate but I could not shut my brain off. As I thought about how to calm down as I meditated, I remembered that if I moved my hands I could shut my thoughts out. However, when I implemented this strategy it felt like my crazy thoughts were at the tip of brain and about to jump out. Further proof that when I am in this state, my thoughts were worthless and should not be considered as real. After all “fear” stands for “false evidence appearing real”.